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[Feb. 13th, 2005|09:27 pm] |
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I HOPE EVERYONES DOING GOOD. AND OF COURSE MEETING YOUR GOALS!!
Well today has been a shitty day. I had Lunch. But i spoiled myself. (BAD ME) I went to a place called Austin Java. Its a hip place, where all the cool cats in Austin go to. Well food there is amazingly GOOD. I had a bacon burger. Even though it was a healthy burger, i feel like i have failed. The hamburger contained Wheat buns, 2 slices of tomato, 3 slices of bacon, of course the meat ( NO GREASE AT ALL), instead of lettuce it was spinach.(yummy). And instead of fries they serve small portion salad (omg, orgasmic taste). FUCK...it was STILL A FREAKING BURGER.....SHITTY, FUCKITTY, SHIT. Am such a failure. I didn't feel bad when i was eating it, but then i thought about it when I got home..........Oh there was a girl at the restaurant. She was so BEAUTIFUL. Hip bones on her were so out. I can't wait ill mine are like that.....GOSH FUCKITYY SHIT, i will not low myself and eat crap like that AGAIN. Well today has been a shitty day. I had Lunch. But i spoiled myself. (BAD ME) I went to a place called Austin Java. Its a hip place, where all the cool cats in Austin go to. Well food there is amazingly GOOD. I had a bacon burger. Even though it was a healthy burger, i feel like i have failed. The hamburger contained Wheat buns, 2 slices of tomato, 3 slices of bacon, of course the meat ( NO GREASE AT ALL), instead of lettuce it was spinach.(yummy). And instead of fries they serve small portion salad (omg, orgasmic taste). FUCK...it was STILL A FREAKING BURGER.....SHITTY, FUCKITTY, SHIT. Am such a failure. I didn't feel bad when i was eating it, but then i thought about it when I got home..........Oh there was a girl at the restaurant. She was so BEAUTIFUL. Hip bones on her were so out. I can't wait ill mine are like that.....GOSH FUCKITYY SHIT, i will not low myself and eat crap like that AGAIN.
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[Jan. 28th, 2005|04:38 pm] |
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Hi everyone just wanted to say hi.
Day 2!!! So happy. My fasting has been going GREAT.
Just wanted to post so I'll update latr tonight.
Love u all
BEAUTY IS PAIN.
xOxO
-Ronnie |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|04:00 pm] |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|02:31 am] |
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17 cal - egg whites..WOHOOO |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|03:18 pm] |
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Hey everyone.
Keep strong ladies.
Last night i had such a ugly dream. I had so much FAT that you couldn't see my lips or my neck. It was such a SCARY image. Has anyone had any dreams similar to this. It really freaked me out.
I have been sleeping a lot lately. I think the more i sleep the more i won't eat. I know its not a good thing because i could be doing something useful, and be burning some calories. I don't know what to do anymore.
I have had 2 animal cookies
and a Diet coke.
I'll update later.. I need to go water my garden. I just started a Herb garden (Basil, Green peppers and Rosemary.)
Its a good way to forget about EVERYTHING.
(UPDATE) I have had 2 diet cokes 0 cal, 2 Animal cookies 15 cal, 2 boiled eggs (didn't eat the yellow stuff). I have no idea how many cal. boiled eggs are, SO ANYONE THAT KNOWS PLEASE POST. In a while i'll be eating chili. A very small portion. Right now am bout to go to the mall with my cousin. so bye for now. :)
Beauty is pain!!!
xoxo
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|10:13 pm] |
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Hi everyone
Just wanted to say hi to everyone. I hope everyone meet there goals today. And for those that didn't tomarrow is a other day.
It seems like i can't do anything right lately. I feel so empty.
While i was in the restroom. (You know what for) i was thinking will i ever be skinny. All my life i wanted to be perfect. It seems like the more i want it the further i get from it.
PERFECTION IS HAPPINESS
This week has been going really well with my ex bf. (Chris) I have been trying to avoid him. I feel like am not good enough for him. He is so SKINNY. and when am around him i feel like a COW.
I was kinda mad at him though. Well heres a little info about him.
He never put me first. Will always rather be with his friends. I know he cares about me but for some reason i come last.
Well what that said..hehe...He has a friend her name is Lori, very nice girl. I don't hate on her. But thats not the point. Well he picks her up from work because he doesn't want her to take the bus. Am like thats cool. That real nice of him. But then i start thinking. Okay am from Austin, Texas. Chris lives in San Antonio, Texas. Its about 1 hr drive. I went there every weekend to see him. But i was always dropped off right outside of San Antonio. When i would ask him to pick me up, he would have a cow. He would be like well can u go meet me some where little closer. Hes about 15 min. away. But for a friend he would drop everything. But hey the pass is the pass, so i won't dwell on it.
Well gotta go, need a bath. :)
BEAUTY IS PAIN
XOXO
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|01:31 pm] |
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3 animal cookies
a mini mini pickle.
Hi everyone,
Stay Strong ladies.
xoxo
(UPDATE)
DAMN IT ALL
I ATE MORE ANIMAL COOKIES....i say around 250 calories
Small portion of Pasta + Chicken... 0 calories...(hehe, i had a little visit to the restroom.) |
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[Jan. 24th, 2005|03:22 pm] |
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omg...
Morning
ice cream 180 cal
yogurt 100 cal
diet coke- 0 cal (YAH)
CAKE- ??? (AM SUCH A FAT COW)
WILL BE WORKING OUT 2 EXTRA HR'S TODAY.
(UPDATE)
YAY! i walked about 3 miles :). I went to the mall today. I saw so many beautiful girls. I really need to get back on track. Ill be doing a liquid only for a while. Ill be doing it with someones else. sorry love, i forgot your ID. Well i didn't eat anythin else today. so proud of myself. so its around 400 cal today. DAMN THE CAKE. well anyone please post some feedback, sure would like some.
love u all
DON'T GIVE UP. SKINNY=HAPPINESS
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[Jan. 22nd, 2005|12:51 am] |
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hi everyone.
I have been feeling really shitty lately. i have been eating like crazy. KILL ME!! ANYONE PLEASE i need to go back to eating 200 cal a day. Anyone please post some posative feedback.
xoxo |
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